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November 30, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

The presence of love all around me. Today, I witnessed several acts of love. These are things that happen constantly, but today for some reason, I took notice.

A brother walking with his arm around his sister as they crossed the street.

Two people running towards each other for a big hug.

A man walking with a bouquet of flowers.

Three friends laughing together around a table at a coffee shop.

My heart is so warmed.


November 23, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

Longstanding friendships. There are several people in my life that I have had the pleasure and fortune to have known a long time. These are people who I may not keep in constant contact with, but when we talk or spend time together, it is like no time has passed at all. I feel especially grateful for friendships like these.

November 22, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

My family. I am so appreciative that I am able to spend my favorite holiday with my parents and extended family members.

An abundance of delicious food. I swear, my Mom is the best cook in the whole wide world.

Downtime. I did not worry about anything else but what was happening in the next few minutes. I love days like that.

November 17, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

International Survivors of Suicide Day. I hate that there is a survivors club to be a part of, but at the same time am so glad that there is one. Today, I felt that I was surrounded by people who understood such a large part of my story without even having to say a word about it. I felt nostalgic, sad and reflective. There were about 40 people with me on this emotional journey. I feel very grateful to them. Feeling love and loss for Steve was easier today amongst people who were doing the same for their loved ones.

November 16, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

Having a strong and able body. I was able to help a friend move today because of it.


November 15, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

Coffee. I am not a morning person at all. Sometimes the only way I can even begin to contemplate the day ahead is knowing that I can linger over a couple of cups of coffee first. I used to rush through my two morning cups of coffee, sucking them down as I got dressed and ready for the day. Now, I make it more of a ritual, sipping my coffee slow and practicing presence over a cup of deliciousness. Coffee is my ultimate appreciation. The steam wafting out of the cup is comforting, while the elixir itself puts pep in my step and makes even the earliest of mornings tolerable. Nothing brings me joy more than watching cream swirl into black coffee. I could dedicate an entire photo album to pictures I’ve taken of cream swirling in my coffee cup.

November 14, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

Having all that I need. I have a fantastic apartment with a warm bed and a full fridge. I do not worry where my next meal is coming from. I have plenty of people who love and support me. If I need someone there are several people who I can call that would drop whatever they were doing to be at my side. I have a job that I love that challenges me every single day. My life is full and rich. I am so grateful everyday for all of the fortune I have been blessed with. There are things that I continue to struggle with, but without those struggles I do not feel that I could appreciate all that I have to the fullest. Nothing good comes easily. Without struggles and tests, there would be no growth.

November 13, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

A quiet mind. As I come into my 30s, I notice that my mind swirls less and less. The voices of doubt have gotten quieter, replaced by voices of reason and strength. My younger self would stay awake for nights worrying about a recent wrong doing, be it an argument with a friend or a slip-up at work. I would worry myself sick and restless about what others thought of me and how that affected the way I viewed myself. Now, when something goes wrong, I do my best to make it right and then let it go. My mistakes are just mistakes. They teach me lessons and make me stronger, sure, but they do not affect me to the core of my being anymore.

November 12, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

The organization I work for. It takes such great care of its employees. I especially appreciate my supervisor. He is an extremely intelligent man whom I feel very fortunate to be learning from. He is the quiet calm I need when feeling overwhelmed. He pushes me to grow stronger. He believes that I am capable and reminds me of this when I need it most. It is because of him that I continue to learn every single day.

November 11, 2012

Today I am grateful for:

Vulnerability. I’m leaning on others pretty hard during this loss. It always surprises me how people step up even when I resist them pretty hard at first. I am feeling very taken care of by my friends and family.