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Today I am grateful for:

Trusting my gut. 

Getting what I need in the most unlikely of places. Like this letter from a father to his daughter and in re-watching movies like “Must Love Dogs.” 
http://goodmenproject.com/families/a-daddys-letter-to-his-little-girl-about-her-future-husband-aklap/

So many new readers! I honestly thought that this blog was limited to my parents and a couple of close friends. Yesterday there were SEVENTEEN visitors. Whoa, dudes! Thank you for reading! 

Taking the time to breathe and say to myself, “everything is going to be alright,” as many times as needed. 

Making moves to get my finances in order. One small step at a time. 

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Today I am grateful for:

Thunderstorms! Man- every night this week there’s been a storm and I’ve been lovin’ it! Everything feels so electric when it’s thundering and lightning.

Rainbows after the storm.

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Summer nails.

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Little things that put a smile on my face. At some point last week, someone must’ve lost a deck of cards and now they are all over the place in my neighborhood. Whenever I go out for a walk I keep my eyes peeled for new ones.

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Night runs. I fall in love with this city more and more each day.

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Y’all know that I am a HUGE fan of the repeat button. I have listened to Royal Teeth’s “Wild” on repeat for two days straight. I had the privilege to see these guys at a Radio 104.5 block party last month. I was so feelin’ their energy. I discovered their video tonight and watched that a bunch as well. Checkity check it. http://royalteeth.virb.com/wild

Happy Summer, friends!

Today I am grateful for:

FIREFLIES! I spotted my first one last night and I could barely contain myself. It is my goal this summer to get as many decent firefly photos as I can.

So much new music to jam to. I’ve been listening to the Mowgli’s new album “Waiting for the Dawn” almost non-stop. Also, Daft Punk, Paramore, Vampire Weekend and Matt and Kim. All of them meant to be BLASTED and sung at the top of my lungs.

Struggling through the silence. Dealing with things left unsaid. Slowly learning that it’s okay not to know. Sitting in discomfort. Letting things unfold as they will.

Interconnectedness. I’ve met and talked to several of my neighbors over the past couple of days. I spent one evening talking with a man at the corner bar who got me so jazzed to explore some spots I didn’t know about.

The freshness of fruits and vegetables this time of year. Everything is bursting with flavor. I’ve been eating tons of big salads and making lots of smoothies. Like this banana, pineapple and peach one. Yummmm.

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Driving down tree covered roads. This one felt like driving through a tunnel of green. So cool.

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The moon and the comfort it provides to me.

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Sitting around a fire, eating s’mores, talking and laughing with good friends and staring up at the stars. Perfection.

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Today I am grateful for:

The open road. I forget quickly how healing it is for me to be in the car for extended periods of time. Thoughts come in and out and I have the time and the space to dwell on all of them. 

Seeing my family and friends in NH. I am lucky to have two places that are filled with people who love and care about me. And want to celebrate big-time birthdays!

Getting to witness so much love between two people. I’m in a wedding this fall and attended the bridal shower over the weekend. The couple are adorable with each other and I love watching them interact. 

Having the means to get in my car and travel. This includes finances and an able body that can sit and drive for eight hours without any issues.

Having faith that I can handle whatever is put in front of me. No matter how unfair, confusing or down right frustrating it may be. Everything happens for a reason. Especially the situations and moments that feel emotionally unbearable. I am going in the right direction.

Humor and laughter shared with others.

Because it is! 🙂

Happy thirtieth to myself. I am so ready to take on this new decade. It’s raining today, but I won’t let that get me down. I am a huge fan of thunderstorms so I’m totally diggin’ it. Besides, it’s supposed to be lucky or something, right? Or does that only count for wedding days? 

Each year I like to take the day and reflect back on the year before. Things that I’ve learned and did, people that I met and moments that made me smile. I like to look at the goals I set for myself and see which ones I’ve reached and which ones I’m still working towards. This is a special birthday, because I’m looking back at the last ten years. And, MAN, what a decade. Here’s to the next ten. With a whole lot more wisdom and knowledge. 

Today I am grateful for:
so many friends and family members sharing their love with me. 
taking the day off to do nice things for myself. 
having the feeling like I’ve got a clean slate. 

My dear friends,

Do you ever wish that you could turn your brain off just for a while? I’ve been having that feeling over the past couple of days. Sometimes, I get overwhelmed by how enormous things feel, how sometimes life feels like too much. And that if I could just have the option to turn my brain off, things could feel manageable when I’m in the enormous place.

I’ve been wondering what happens to memories when other people aren’t around anymore (for whatever reason). Do memories lose their shape and vibrance when only remembered by one? Do they become skewed by only one perspective?

I’d like to leave you with some quotes that I’ve been reading this morning:

“The experiences of your life are trying to tell you something about yourself. Don’t cop out on that. Don’t run away and hide under your covers. Lean into it. What is this lesson in the wind? What is this storm trying to tell you? What will you learn if you face it with courage?” -Pema Chodron

“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.” -Kurt Vonnegut

Today I am grateful for:
Movies and books that knock me on my ass, recently “The Fault in Our Stars” and “Warm Bodies.”
Quotes that move me when I don’t have words.
The way that wind blows through open fingers.
Sunshine after a rainy day.

Today I am grateful for:

My never-ending curiosity. It often leads to asking questions about things that I don’t understand or things that I want to know more about. These questions almost always lead to conversations with strangers. I love these conversations. I love moments where I feel really connected to someone I don’t know at all. When out for a walk this morning I was stopped at an intersection. This man pulls up next to me, BLASTING some soul music. And, man, he was into it. I wish I could paint a picture for you so that you could really understand him. He oozed cool- I could tell that he was totally hip and with it. I fell in love a little as I watched this man fully immersed in the sounds that surrounded him. Listening to it like he was the only one who could hear it. This caused a big grin on my face as I locked eyes with this man. He grinned in response to my grin and nodded at me. I nodded back and grinned wider. He drove off and I crossed the street. I continued to smile the entire way home.

People who inspire me, like Anis Mojgani. He writes incredibly beautiful poetry. And there is something about the way he speaks that completely moves me. I am breathtaken every time I listen to him. Check out “The Walking Hour” at this link —–> http://weorme.bandcamp.com/

If you dig that, YouTube “This is How She Makes Me Feel.” It’s my favorite.

Today I am grateful for:

Late night dog park dates with Adder.

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Having a job that allows my “office” to look like this from time to time.

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Going for a middle of the day run.

Supportive co-workers and supervisors.

I wish all mornings could be like this: Bright sun, birds chirping and cool spring air blowing in open windows. I slept hard last night– I had a headache that just wouldn’t quit AND it was perfect sleeping weather. So, I woke up feeling refreshed.

I’ve had some long talks over the past couple of days with some big brother types. They’ve talked and laughed with me and given me long distance phone hugs. They’ve also given me some hard to swallow advice, with no sugar coating, which I appreciate. I had lots to reflect on my walk with Adder this morning. Two different things kept turning around and around in my brain.

There’s a line from a letter that John Steinbeck wrote to his son, in that letter he says, ““And don’t worry about losing. If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.”

And a line from a Rihanna song that gets stuck in my head way too easily, “Not really sure how to feel about it, there’s something in the way you move. Makes me feel like I can’t live without you, it takes me all the way. I want you to stay.”

Two conflicting messages, huh?

So, I decided to remind myself of this one instead: “Something wonderful is going to happen today.”

Because all that I am guaranteed is this day before me. I’d like to focus on that today. Eventually, everything else will work itself out. As frustrating of an answer as it can be, the one thing that I always have going for me is that time continues to pass. I’d like to make the best of what I’ve got. Really make a point to appreciate moments and mornings like this. I’m striving everyday to be the most positive and enthusiastic person that I know. And if I don’t quite make it, there’s always tomorrow.

So much love, light and gentleness to you, dear reader. ❤

Today I am grateful for:
Positive affirmations.
Good friends to lean on, especially ones who don't tell me what I want to hear.
Spring mornings.
Coffee.

Today I am grateful for:

6/03- Happy NH Day!

Not slipping, tripping, falling or coming close to breaking a limb while running in the rain this morning. Klutziness contained!

Rain! The way it sounds when it hits my windows. The way it washed away some of the pollen and broke the heat.

Making balance a priority.

Enjoying the last few days of my twenties.

Beer week and all of the fun activities that come along with it.